
I’m fine. Always the same lie.
Always..

I’m fine. Always the same lie.
Always..
Not all that is brown, is chocolate.
Poo exists, okay?
Let me tell all of you that I deactivated my FB account a month ago because FB is so booooring

sometimes i’m too caught up with what people say. i’m very sensitive to negativity, and the fear of being seen as wrong makes me tiptoe what i do.
yet sometimes i question, do I live to make myself happy? or should I be subjected to people’s perception?
Because, the world is not only ME. It’s consists of US.
I never knew why I was born in this world. I never knew, in the first place, how I was made, and how I stayed for nine months inside my mother’s womb. I never knew why I survived those nine months, and why God chose for me to. I never knew why my mother and father decided this name I have now for me. I never knew why I had to become a substitute parent just because I’m the eldest child. I never knew why I got scolded for what my younger siblings did. I never knew why I had to be the only one exerting so much effort among the children. I never knew why I was created with a mind which adapts easily to any academic challenges. I never knew why I had so many friends, but most of them were fakes. I never knew why I trust people so easily. I never knew why I fall in love fast. I never knew why I became sensitive 24/7. I never knew why someone loved me —- Am I deserving enough to be loved? Guess not. I’ve been an evil child to my parents, who keeps on defending herself though she obviously owns the defeat. I’ve been selfish, especially when it comes to food. I’m the laziest person on Earth in my own eyes. My room is a landfill. I get mad too easily, and same goes for reacting. Moreover, I don’t like myself either on the outside. My face’s flooded with pimples, and I alwans do mannerisms such as biting nails and plucking hair. Guess I’ll never know why.